Rejection

I don't know what is wrong with me today. I've had much maybe that I made up my mind to spill it out. I may ruin someone's morning with my 'crankiness, but I have to! I can't bear it anymore, what is the issue that suddenly you went missing. It's a bit drama, I know. But, whatevs!

You know you have to spell it out when it has affected your sleep cycle, your appetite. Over kan?! But yes! I can't sleep because I keep waiting and longing for your text like always. Nasib mandi masih basah 😛

Long story short, I confront him and asked if he get tired of me or trying to distance himself from me. Yelah, like suddenly jadi chipsmore. Mana aku tak emo. Dapat pula masa tengah period. Wrong timing. But glad that I confront it and confess my feeling. No regret. 

And best of all, thank you for the rejection! Hahaha serious, that's the happiest moment I have had in life when you reject it. Politely. Such a gentleman. Oh, just in case if you wonder how can I be so relaxed after the rejection, the answer is because I don't put any expectations after the confession. I express the feeling for the sake of myself. I don't want to get trapped to own a heart game. I know, something may change and things will never be the same.

'you can't find a soulmate if you don't have a soul'

Mazikeen 

Now, I am at my ease. Couldn't be any better. I am no longer waiting, longing and feeling lost. Nonetheless, I am still here. Be me.

Of all, I can't stop smiling ear to ear today. Ni kalau you accept the confession, am dead. I have a feeling for you, but to go for another level, i'm sorry. I can't, at the moment. Let us remain as friend. Or fling(?)

OH! Yes, Holidate in Netflix is so me! wow!