Penat

 PENAT.

Not really sure if I have worked so hard or just tired plus fatigue because of insufficient rest. Sometimes I do feel that I only live for a short while. I don't see my future with my partner and kids around.

I only see myself dying

-alone.

Penat tau tak even when you have well rest, cukup tidur but at the end you still sleepy. Bukan sleepy yang biasa-biasa tapi sleepy yang kau tidur mati terus. Then when you need to complete your task, suddenly you snooze off. Bila terjaga, you are not even fully awake. Bila buat kerja then tangan tetiba kematu, otak jam. I'm sick of it! 

 

Lack of sleep leads to microsleep that I faced 4/5 years ago. And accident happened. Alhamdulillah still alive until today.

I may die because of short of breath or stroke. or maybe hypertension or heart attack. Well, it could be one of those or combinations of all.

Sleep apnea maybe?